Friday, July 15, 2005

Where Ourselves are Concerned


Where Ourselves are Concerned



Yves asks why it is
the majority of us
are most proud
of things about ourselves
we aren't responsible for –

happy temperament,
well turned ankle,
facility with words,
photographic memory,
bee stung lips,
mathematical genius,
endless supply of energy,
mahogany tresses,
voice of 3 octave range –

why it is
we only fail to take credit
when we feel we're not good enough
so that the talent/gene/gift
haunts us like inverted vanity –

why the I Me Mine
of high self-esteem
blinks more often than not
myopically the better
to be able to hold fast
to belief in the superiority
of I Me Mine.

I say to such queries only that
people love us best
for the things we're least
responsible for – that must be it –
that must be why

we chronically make no sense
where ourselves are concerned.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Will be away for a week

on vacation to Vancouver - returning July 7th - catch up with you then!

xodj

Monday, June 27, 2005

A la mode

A la mode

Colourful skirts
taken up by the armful
into Bay Day dressing rooms.

Summer sandal flats
pinching round the toes
at the end of bare summer legs.

The sizes vary
along with the hemlines,
the girls a parade of difference.

Cotton peasants,
rayon with slits,
upside-down, tulipy shapes.

Svelte picnic blonds
with freckled noses
emerge in soft leaf greens.

Brunettes & redheads,
peach, plum, mango,
in mirror-time randomly smile.

Sunday, June 26, 2005

Heat Wave

Heat Wave

I make my way through to where you wait,
sleeping. The sky hauls
wispy clouds in, protectors
of blue monotony.

You are under a willow tree.
You've forgotten to bring a book so
you sleep, fitfully,
in the steep heat's
sticky envelope.

I have something to tell you,
but I'm leery of waking you.
I am sweaty in my sandals.
I've brought pita sandwiches
& bottled water for our lunch.

This section of the park is empty
& we like it that way.
I sense that if I wake you
you'll just be too hot –
if too hot, cranky maybe.

A jogger, porpoise-sleek, flashes
by. What I have to tell you
turns, humidly, into a headache.
On my shoulders, heat rash marks
where earlier there were
backpack straps.

I think of something else to tell you,
but it's only about this weather, nothing
you aren't feeling already.

I'm losing my appetite,
my desire to have you notice me,
my thoughts about my thoughts.

I decide – I think wisely –
to let you sleep.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005


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Monday, June 20, 2005

Rooms For Crooked Music

this is an audio post - click to play


Rooms For Crooked Music


i

Predator spirit, colour of golden sums
numbering each & each in drawn out order.

Frederick Nietzsche with a prelude in rhymes
reading collusions as signs of recurrence.

Endless song in the middle distance
of the open, deafening ear.

Imperial, windy birds flapping. Ladybugs.
Fantastic origins that cope by going missing.

This moment I have no plan like a last plan –
just talking pictures behind the retina. Oh.

ii

The paperboy didn't come this morning
so I read yesterday over again.

Arson in Beaumont, A Streetcar Named Desire
to be staged in drag. Bay Day Sale tomorrow – that's today.

Under my tongue, game of gaps.
In the milestone closet, weight of sleeves.

Over the pitch of each & each a strumming
looseness of drained endings.

Or the dead letterbox where Heidegger snoozes
waiting on your call/fall.

iii

In the slant dream I stand straight.
Crooked trees, right & left of me, hold up the sky.

Overgrown dirt paths, clearings.
Branches clutching clouds using ruined hands.

I hear – but I don't hear – commanding voice.
There is god – or not – in not tuning in.

Maybe the dark is a wise holding pattern.
Maybe this is where I don't know how to land.

Numbering want, each & each.
Sleep stilled & still there's stir.




iv

For providing contrast, I like my walls white,
even when they're white walls stonewalling.

Outside of each & each, there's this & every other
not figured out – child molesters, languid priests

with pockets full of sucking stones – Angelfish
tattoos on burly shoulders. Mimicry, brassy chuckles.

I hang my pictures straight, & they hang crooked –
invite you for dinner, hoping you can't come.

Who am I to be asking why
so much of the world is like this?

Sunday, June 05, 2005

Poem for Laurel

Away From The Weather

In panties & lavender tank
she stays inside away from the weather.

Bare essentials in the unflappable back room:
turned down bed, shuttered open window, speedy ceiling fan,

side table with lamp, book & brimming water glass. Under
the bed, flip-flops, dust & cat hair. She stays there

not moving, sweat pooling in the crevices behind her knees:
drip, drip – left hand, then, flat against protruding hipbone forming

right angle triangle, an odd lapse in a bad mood. She is not aware
her foot has gone to sleep. She is not thirsty enough to drink, bored enough to read.

When the phone down the hall begins to ring
she moves onto her side, swipes damp hair out of her eyes. Listens.

The phone stops soon enough. The fan whirs. Hot.
Flat on her back again, she thinks about being hot.

She pictures tubes of sunscreen, parasols. Ice cubes, swimming holes.
Mostly she thinks about weather.

Monday, May 30, 2005

Hiatus

Hiatus

Pauses between fixations
full of flying river bugs
left & right hovering,
the humid afternoon
leafily tarted up
in the quiet neighbour's
fanfare back yard.

I am watching from a narrow balcony
four floors up,
the way he rests between
bouts of weeding the vegetable patch,
his wobbly garden chair set next
to a line of vivid tulips
that opened day before yesterday.

In my lap, dog-eared Sexton
morphing the helium of her scrutinized pain
into a bartering of light-headed gardens
circa 1963.

Nothing is where I'd have it –
all like the fragile makings
of a vigorous failed poem
that can't stop sorting through
a knack for lost beginnings.

Fugue of 7 Beatles' Songs Revisited


Fugue of 7 Beatles' Songs Revisited



The Fool on the Hill


Last stand. Eyeballing inward. Mania glut.
In the distance, urban landmarks pool
the rise & fall, scorn & torn, open & shut.
Fences fallen away. Apathy. The Fool
seated cross-legged in brown Spring grass
holding whims of refusal together.
All that he is, all that he finally has
testing the mettle of psychic weather
dumbed down. Sham third eye. Ohm. Bright vowels
& chapped lips peeling. Scruffy Mount Royal
where the homeless know better than to howl.
Sex trade workers. Picnickers. Spoils.
Dog in a manger without a manger.
Squished pop can. Century butt end. Strangers.


A Day in the Life


Squished pop can. Century butt end. Strangers.
Who is who already you in drag.
All those possibilities, dangers
post-dated, daft. Mindset of a time lag
between unranked phenomena. Mouse trap
in a pet shop. Necessities. Loud speakers.
On the internet Tuesday weather map
indications the day will call for sneakers
that know how to sweat. Accidents set
in repressed small print, all eyes on it.
Grim headlines for Iraq & Global debt.
A small boy's racing intentions split
between How & If – never Why.
Press a button. Shun steroids. Leap. Die.


I Me Mine


Press a button. Shun steroids. Leap. Die.
The middle way bows elsewhere, silken cheeked.
The truth is innocent – the truth has to lie
or be carefully guarded, then slyly leaked
to ensure the triumph of dead men dancing
under the pocked moon. Such gorgeous flight
or fight response – small claims enhancing
fishbowl dreaming among the far Right,
the blowhard egoists. Shush, shush
the cellular bells that toll for thee
believably, pointedly, choreographed, lush
in a way you've been taught it can never be.
For now what's of interest has you in mind.
Take up the chorus – I Me Mine.


Across the Universe


Did you take up the chorus? I Me Mine?
Gauche mistakes – millennia – star light.
Tempest in a handshake. Mandala design
exploded, celestial, token-bright.
Nothing's gonna change my world today
bareback-stormy, broken, of a piece
with recycled tunes – also ways to pray
wordlessly into a soothing release
from gnawing desire. Nothing will spin
the tick, tock, flip, flop out of control.
No thing inside here will lose or win –
stung sum of parts greater than the whole.
Tantrum laughter. Pining. Moot silence.
Niches of shadow. Blood heart. Violence.


Helter Skelter



Niches of shadow, blood heart, violence –
all for true love with no hedging of bets
till labouring over the need for pretense,
method goes awry, doubt collects.
Kiss me or no by the frail garden gate.
Ask me to supper – de-cork the wine.
Choose between pledges & wriggling bait.
Loosen your fear grip, take your sweet time
like a song still deciding – song full of flaws
bewitching/enticing/stalling/claw-red –
turncoat rhythmic, studded with pause –
slippery-evasive – chasing the dead.
Turn down the volume. Hush – I'm still here –
pulse in your blue wrist, tongue in your ear.



Black Bird



Pulse in your blue wrist, tongue in your ear.
Into the light of the dark black night
circling. The fool on the hill's been here.
Bread crumb path. Prickly vines. Winter's sight
sweeping ever & a day away.
& back again. Deep breath. Alone time.
Stop. Start. Imagine. Replay
the way you might a teasing slant rhyme.
Obstacles. Worry beads. Heavy air
weighing down a well used, heavy heart.
Say the gods give no more than we can bare;
to know when to start's a rich art.
Up ahead what you see may be what you get.
Mind advances sideways. Not there yet…


I am the Walrus


Advancing sideways – not there yet.
In the distance, urban landmarks swell.
Sex trade workers. Businessmen. Vets.
The third eye sees, just can't tell.
On the pixel screen Monday's weather map –
no rain today, no sun tomorrow.
Black bird steals your baseball cap –
good lovers steal, bad lovers borrow.
Tempest handshake. Press a button. Leap.
Fishbowl-dream the pockmarked moon.
Semolina pilchards ten eggmen deep –
pray no one will give up too soon.
At any rate hold fast to your squatter's hut –
last stand – eyeballing – mania glut.



The Canadian Tag Team

From Charlie, courtesy of Emily: A poet-seeking missile is heading to earth from outer space philistines. Only three contemporary poets (besides you) will be able to survive in the bomb shelter. Which three poets do you choose to save and why?

Phyllis Webb - a farout Canadian poet`s poet, somebody in her 70s by now who I`m already afraid might disappear in spite of stellar work. So much I want to ask her, about her anti-ghazals, all the poets she knows & has known, about living writing for years in a small house on a pleasant Gulf island which legend has it is filled to the rafters with unpublished work - she is already a survivor actually - I figure her sparse (if possibly voluminous) work needs protection, not her...

Leonard Cohen - oh I`m gathering a spiritual bunch with peculiar takes on the world & love, as well as on the spiritual. Would love to get Webb & Cohen talking...

Margaret Atwood - geez - all my poets are over 65!! But I figure Atwood`s hardy, will outlive me, & with all the work we`ll have to do just to survive, she`ll get back into more poetry, no time for those brick novels of hers (I do like them too though).

Teetering Titles

I'm a title junkie, not just, not even mainly, of poetry book titles – rather, book titles in general. Really must be the would be poet in me, seeing so much in a few clicking words – much that has nothing to do with the books in question sometimes. When I used to write songs for a band, more than once a glance at a bookshelf got me going lyrically, & the titles didn't even need to be that unusual – for example Living by Fiction (Annie Dillard) & The telling of lies (Timothy Findley). The first is the title of a book about narrative writing, the second a novel about a checkerboard childhood.

Some titles I like:

Hopeful Monsters

A Brief History of Everything

Hanging Fire

Dinner at the Homesick Restaurant

Womanizing Nietzsche

Parasites of Heaven

Voltaire's Bastards

The Savage Mind

The Opposites Within

Main Brides

Long Day's Journey Into Night

Blooded Thought

Saint Maybe

Under A Glass Bell

etc etc etc – Geez – There's so many poems waiting to happen to me when I scan those shelves – it's almost as good as picking up a dictionary – almost as good & sometimes better – The Imago Bird…

I've Been Passed a Baton

1. The person who passed the baton to you?
jenni , bless her heart (excellent blog).

2. Total volume of music files on your computer.
I really haven't got into downloading music files - simply play cds I have as well as CBC (Canadian Broadcasting Corporation) radio station.

3. The title and artist of the last CD you bought.
Fleist - a fantastic jazzy female artist with quirky songwriting abilities. She won a juno (canadian music award) this year, which was surprising given her non-mainstream creds. Play this cd lots.

4. Song playing at the moment of writing.
Well it's the morning & I've got CBC on, a documentary on Bosnia - lol. Unlike jenni, it is not silence I need to hear myself but rather a kind of white noise. Some how it shuts down the plethora of voices going on in my head all the time - don't ask - voices that make, for example, silent meditation difficult for me. When I do stick a cd in, I often leave it playing over & over & over while writing, at intervals clicking into what's on with my ears, but mostly just feeling the rhythms sort of unconsciously. Some faves I like to throw on: Feist, LHASA (album The Living Road, a montrealer who sings in english, french, & portuguese - mostly english), Pigeon Hole, Once Blue, Tom Waits Greatest Hits (!!!!) - a whole bunch of stuff, mostly women, with songs I really dig.

i'm passing this baton on to Jill , Laurel & ..M..

Friday, May 20, 2005

Chasm




Chasm


Yes it's getting bad
but what can I do
when all I have are answers
to questions you won't ask
since you don't even see them
as questions worth breath.

You've managed of late
to unclench your heart
& oh - doesn't that feel good,
sleep & balm together
presided over by
a dull tooth of a star
with no intention of cutting
the night sky open.

I must be leaving out
something crucial - that must be it -
otherwise you'd understand
I don't elect to tell you this
for frivolous nothing.

I need a new line - the kind of line I hate -
one traveling comatose merely
to get to the other side.

Saturday, May 07, 2005

For Some Things It Doesn't Matter Which Season



For Some Things It Doesn't Matter Which Season



As snow falls on crusty streets,
too-dense angel hair thickening traffic,
tree fringe half-fried in ice,
I turn as if ready to meet
my maker on a whim – complete
surrender to my sense of cold as a howling catalyst
pock marking psyche.

Summer is friction & the yellow urban sky –
thin shirts, dusty seeds – all about
wedges of sunlight, exotic fruits
I can find & handle, cleave into,
the mouth made to matter,
evenings weary
as sweating brick.

But always in the thick of it:
itch of weather gone predictably haywire,
expectant times of day
like mood-strums, fault lines;
catch in the throat a hassle
of would-be closure crookedly
swallowing fey air.

Friday, April 29, 2005

Ink Drawing With Birds

Ink Drawing With Birds


Piñata

I imagine freeze dried living
under a glass bell – no wind, no naming
of first & last things. Weather-free.
On the window sill, a brown bird.
On the sill, the bird who looks like she sees me.
On the bird, two wings in a scissor v.
I imagine no window pane – bird in the room.
I hold out a finger for the glassed-out bird.
On the sill, preparation for flight, then flight.

Amatory

You sing, light up, become all voice & limbs.
Quilt pushed back. Bodies turning
to sky cloves, rainy heat.
Pillow talk, you in brown hands
moving sideways, limbways.
A cry, a song, a crumb.
Under eiderdown, toes push.
On the soft neck, cradling attentiveness.
Bird again on the window sill.

River

Steps taken just now leave no mark.
The wind is up, the water salivating
dumb dry shore.
Pretty duck, long steps
in sync with yours, lulling.
3, 4 more & we stop to look
out & further out where
the cargo ship sits, white waves that rock
like arms unlocking.

Plausibles

No you'll never tell
what I've told you not to tell –
I admire that about you.
Back home, you google for bird songs –
auditory download, the house blithely
chattering with it.
On the window sill, the same or a different bird –
eiderdown a plump cloud on the floor,
river weighty inside my shoe

Friday, April 01, 2005

Oh Canada

A couple of days ago I bought myself four Canadian Literary Journals. I've been thinking that while my first contemporary loves among poets included a great many Canadians - Leonard Cohen, Phyllis Webb, Margaret Atwood, Barry Callaghan, Irving Layton, Al Purdy, John Newlove, etc - well, the web has turned my eye to all the Americans I never knew, & so now there's a grand crop of new Canadians that I want to get to know - hense one of my reasons for buying the journals. It is hard to get Canadian Journals except by mail, I suppose American Journals are likewise scarce in the Barnes & Nobles of the USA? But anyway, there is one fabulous all Canadian bookstore in Montreal called The Doublehook, which stalks a lot of journals, not to mention a poetry section, all Canadian, to die for. The journals I bought included Arc Poetry Magazine, The Fiddlehead, The Malahat Review, & Prism Magazine. I've started out by reading the poems in each, then rereading certain sections of poems, as well as some poetry book reviews. I am trying to get a handle on the differences between the journals, with the idea of (finally) sending out work, as opposed to procrastinating about it.

The poets in these books, I do have to say, in the main "write well" - that is, language, linebreaks, form, soundscapes & structure are bravely attacked, realized. I am not so sure if I find the semantics always to my liking, though I can say that numerous poems in the crop reward rereading. Experimentation is not something to be found in abundance, but quality in the main prevails. I get this feeling - don't most of us think this way - that the editors would not find what I do much to their liking, particularly in the case of two of the journals. Is that me projecting, or am I right? It's hard to tell, as when I sit thinking on which poems I might send to this or that mag, I am overwhelmed by considerations re form & style in a way that greatly displeases me. Thing is, while I like, say, the domestic narratives I read in the journals, I think that those are not really the kind of poems I want to write - also that most of these people write them waaaaaaaaaaaay better than me (egads!)

Well: here is a prose poem from The Malahat Review, by Adam Dickinson, that I very much like:

Kingdom, Phylum, Class

The trees are starting to change here as I'm sure they are in Toronto.
Yesterday on my walk I found a white ash that was so golden
people had to squint as they walked under. Closer to school I
couldn't ignore the deep purple on that bush just outside your old
office. I often think of you. Recently, I read of a bower bird so con-
vinced of the perfection of its own colour that everything it builds
is similarly shaded. It finds blue wrappers and blue straws and its
own blue feathers to build its bower. But this fake nest is only for
show -- built on the ground to attract a mate. After they agree to be
together, the female bird builds a sensible nest camouflaged high
in the trees.

It's raining here today and the yellow ash leaves lie in the street
waiting for someone to put a peach or a pineapple together. This
is, I guess, the job of the peach bird. Maybe commitment is love
that has discovered taxidermy, or taxonomy, I could never keep
them straight. Maybe it's both -- thinking that is stuffed and sorted.
What do they use anyway? To stuff I mean. How could you re-
place the insides? I'm sorry. I'm sorry. The rain has soaked the red
shirt you gave me. Where are the red-breasted birds?

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Yes - a poem that dreams inside a frame of reference refreshingly suggestive, a poem that suggests its emotional strata via image, leaving the reader charmed & thoughtful - or this reader at any rate. Malahat actually has a number of poems that impact on first reading, then impact on rereads. Arc, on the other hand, has poems which mostly take rereads before they impact, not because they are 'difficult', but rather more because they lack the element of surprise which delights with the first read - a little too expected or something - & only reveal themselves when one starts taking in the smoothness of form, the flawless linebreaks & pacing & such. Here is the poem from Arc which took the thousand dollar first prize that the magazine awards yearly - an accomplished poem, one that grew on me, but not one which, for my tastes, would have got a first prize:

The Crazy Maps

Mother dies in a hospital bed in Peterborough,
thirty miles north of where she was born.

The leaves turn and fall into snow, slippery roads tonight,
a storm of memory in the headlights and this new one bullies

its way to centre stage. The truth: she's gone.
It's snowing. We can't find Father.

When he hears the news, he drives in circles,
lost in the cul-de-sacs south of the city, amazed

how streets he'd driven all his life narrow and disappear.
In his red car, window cracked an inch, smoke fumes

a thin line toward starlight. Cigarette after cigarette
dropped in the suburbs on the crazy maps of grief.

A stranger, arriving after midnight, can't say
where he's been, coat open, tie askew,

everybody thinking he was the one who would go first.
Silence replaces her and snow spins a requiem

outside the window with city lights fading
under full cloud, the first hours without her.

This early fall morning. October, no one speaks
of the future or of the past. We are stuck

in private thoughts, the swirl and pull of winter,
sounds we hear when we sleep, furnace, fridge, fact.

Surely, we had a hand in it
. Surely, had we known
some other way to love, she would have made it home.

Susan Stenson

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Oh dear - it's a stunning poem! - accomplishes so much with so little, one of those "yes that's it" poems, as opposed to an "aha" poem. I guess it's a taste thing, but then typing out the piece really did make it impact more fully on me. Sooooooooooo - can't I just love what I love (including the second poem in this post) & never mind about assessing in a best, better, better way? When I read I do that - hierarchies are completely beside the point, a good poem is a good poem is a good poem...(blah blah).

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Hillman says it's time to be more than just a hero

I have been reading James Hillman, the archetypal psychologist with Jungian roots, for a number of weeks now. His work is difficult for me, not because it feels alien – not at all, actually – but rather because it demands a kind of thinking, feeling, seeing, imagining that goes against the grain of habitual western thought & judgment patterns, the type which both my formal & self-taught education have incalculated into my psyche. I'd read Hillman before, a few years ago, but I seem to understand him more easily now.

An idea that is central to what I mean about his work turning things upside-down would be the way he insists upon the heroic idea of getting on with life, both inner & outer, as only one way of being-in-the-world that has validity, a way that often, in fact, causes inflation of the ego self & dismisses much of what contributes to what he calls "soul-making". Hillman is a man who thinks controlling everything (an impossibility), getting "on top" of the ladder in every instance, is a manic way of proceeding in the world. He calls for slowing down, for living a depression as opposed to merely killing it, for looking at the face of things as oppose to always classifying, for seeing in failure a chance, not to learn a "lesson" so much as to expand & explore & get to know psyche & imagination. He has this idea of the poetic basis of the mind as the seat of soulful being. He sees us each as many persons whose Christian roots, whether consciously or unconsciously, have us repressing so many sides of our personalities in instances where doing so is inappropriate. He contends always thinking in terms of opposites – good/bad, dark/light, negative/positive – traps us into not taking things for what they are. If I say light is good, for example, thinking in opposites will have me saying dark is bad, as opposed to getting at its differences. Pleasure/pain oppositions gets me stuck designating anything painful as bad & to be avoided, where as much comes from pain that shouldn't be avoided, that contributes to valid expansion. It's not that he champions unhappiness; rather he believes in its necessity over & beyond merely showing us via opposition happiness.

It is interesting to me that he says if you "look" at a depression as opposed to just try to repress it, you create soul. The idea is not to identify with the depression, but rather to LOOK at it. Oh dear – I'm using such abstract language here. At any rate, it appears to have a lot to do with what Keats called "negative capacity", & with resting with images long enough to gain insight into them. It is about soul (in the dirt) as opposed to spirit (in the clouds). It is about imagining as opposed to literalizing…

Sunday, March 20, 2005

Correspondence?


But what about the 'burning desire' to contact the author? The author: pseudonym? anonymous? amorphous? intangible? You would only be contacting yourself.


Wilson Duff to Lilo Berliner
20 August 1973
(Quoted by Phyllis Webb in "Nothing But Brush Strokes", 1995)

I meant to write a letter to cyber space today - really to the other & again the other on the other side of cyber space. I got caught up in all sorts of deliciously dilletante activities of small consequence, large indulgence - walking the streets around here with their brickbox houses & snowy porches, then descending to the river's edge, changing directions out of an exhilarating & kindly warmish wind - flipping through poems (by Susan Musgrave) & straining through a charmingly angry article about psychobiologic critisism by the quaintly brilliant Phyllis Webb - discussing which song & why now & Hey!!! Teacher!!! Leave those kids alone - appraising the contents of the vegetable drawer & adding what was missing to a list for Yves to go foraging after - taking in a reading by some Jamaican author on the Sunday CBC radio that was (I had to admit it) admirably funny, alive...So the letter turned into a note which turned into a quote which pushed for a note...

Saturday, March 19, 2005

The stick to beat me with...

I was given the stick by Jenni (j.hughes) – here are my answers




You're stuck inside Fahrenheit 451, which book do you want to be:


The Awful Rowing Toward God – Anne Sexton

Have you ever had a crush on a fictional character?


Oh quite a few – Alyosha in Dostoyevsky's The Brothers Karamazov; the idiot in Dostoyevsky's book The Idiot; Bartlby [!!!!] Who always 'preferred not' in a Melville short story;le petit prince; the cockroach in Kafka's The Metamorphosis, etc. Gotta face it – I'm a sucker for the naïve sweetheart, at least when he's fictional. Now about the self-fictionalizing bad boys I've had the hots for over the years…


The last book you bought is:


"Nothing But Brush Strokes" by Phyllis Webb

The last book you read:


"Queen Rat" by Lynn Crosbie

What are you currently reading?


*Soul-making -The Desert Way of Spirituality by Alan Jones

*Re-visioning Psychology – James Hillman

*Collected Poems 1970-1985 – Susan Musgrave

*Water and Light – Phyllis Webb

*Living at the Movies – Jim Carroll

Five books you would take to a deserted island:

The Norton Anthology of English Literature, 2nd Edition; The Riverside Shakespeare, Complete Works; Anne Sexton, Complete Poems; Complete Poems of Emily Dickinson; Introduction to Fiction – Editors Jack David & Robert Lecker (all choices subject to change, depending on the day I find I'm leaving – this would be today)

Who are you going to pass this stick to (3 persons)? And Why?


Geez, I've got to make some blogger friends!!!

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Speaking Poetry


In her dreams, my cat is this night
in which I sit and write about
a cat I don’t have…


I

Miu: the Egyptians knew what to make of you
disarmingly curled beneath the gilded chair
of the Mistress of the house
as nights fell down with no sound of rodents gnawing in the pantry,
as nights opened into operatic silences deep enough
to nurture potent speculations
about your true otherness
beyond aloof huntress
with the tangling teeth –
knew what to make of you
who didn’t speak poetry
as if to spare them the chore of making
less of you than dreaming suggested they could.

And then those peculiar white elephants of hope,
and windows opening behind the stars,
as mute paws with claws retracted
padded across burning sand daily
as if across snow –
slant imprints left in their soft facts,
their staid, too tidy prayers.

II

On Telegraph Hill
above Metaphor Road,
a lighthouse holding
a mummified cat.

Miu, also known as
Felis silvestris libyca,
sits fixated incognito.

At ten past midnight,
psychic weather & asymmetry
have their way with loose verbs.

Fog moves in on little feet.

III

Still dreaming,
the dark cat shifts in my lap.
She seems to have set the two of us afloat
in a millennia mosaic that fits
like a warm coin in the palm of my skull.

I’m loathe to call her anything now…

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

About the name of this Blog

Squatter's Scraps -- it's a phrase I've been carrying around for years. I've a song with it as a title, back from the days when I was doing lyrics for a local Montreal band. I have a series of poems called by the same name. But it is sort of one of those found phrases that describes how I feel about what I am in the 20th & now 21rst centuries: a squatter's scrap among squatters' scraps. Doesn't matter if I'm thinking of myself in relation to the world, to the fragmented historical, artistic & intellectual landscapes I've inherited, even to my concrete day to day existence, my apartment, my adoptive city, my mate, my pin money: I'm a squatter with rather blow away roots, with stakes in all sorts of things that I've laid claim to without being able to own, with patchwork & chipped belongings I've picked up along the way. I figure that the posts I'll be putting here will have the ambivalent quality of squatters' scraps too -- bits & pieces twistily ephemeral yet actually there for all that, from a description of my day, to a second or third or thousandth hand idea I've picked up somewhere, to the "new" lain out on the unknown past -- "the past is what the present is doing now" (Alan Jones). I don't think of this as depressing - more as the condition of our postmodern existence - hell - the human condition of the majority at any time.

A favourite scrap: Jeff Buckley singing Halleluiah...

Greetings

I've decided to take the blog plunge - rambling, babbling, querying to follow.